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Abortion of the Century. I'm so sorry.

Tue Jul 14, 2009, 2:36 AM
Truth is, I don't think about you often.
Only when I listen to the deftones. Or when I make ramen. Or watch nerdy stuff on the science channel.

And I was thinking about you. And your heart. And how bad it must hurt now. Because of me.
And despite everything, you really didn't deserve anything I did to you.
Well, maybe some of it, but not everything.
You loved me unconditionally and irrevokably, and that's more then I can say for anyone else I've ever come in contact with.

If I had only loved you more. Shown it in a better way. Let you know how much I appreciated you, instead of trying to be this ice queen, this twisted little version of winslow. All I cared about was having someone love me more then I loved them, and in the process, I never realized it was I who depended so greatly on you.

I am truely, truely, sorry. I wish I could take it back. I wish I hadn't hurt you, but I can't fix it now. And even if it was possible, I wouldn't know how to do it.

I don't have many regrets. I sleep fairly sound at night. But the way I treated you, I regret. It keeps me up at night. It makes it hard to breathe sometimes. It makes me cry at random times. I feel terrible.


And no, Anthony. This one is for you, not him.
Please forgive me.

  • Mood: Regretful
  • Listening to: change in the house of flies.
  • Watching: black holes.
  • Playing: mario sunshine.
  • Eating: ramen.
  • Drinking: monster.

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  • Interests: Painting, and you.
  • Favourite movie: Fight Club, Land Before Time.
  • Favourite band or musician: Anything from Mozzart, to Manson.
  • Favourite artist: Myself. Duh.
  • Favourite poet or writer: Brian James, E.E. Cummings, J.K. Rowling
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ha, a not blocked comment

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When can I drop by some time?
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Thanks a lot for the fav =)

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call me!

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thanks for the fav :)

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+Seulement Noire! C'est une couleur de la mort+
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Thx for the fav ;)

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thaaaaaaanks for the fav ;)
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No problem.

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